triggering

it creps inside you without your knowledge, and by the time you realize it, its too late.
it becomes your friend that silently destroys you, there are two ways out
but its easier said than done

ht: 5'5
cw: 140 (kill me)
gw1: 120
gw2: 110
gw3: 100
hw: 140
lw: 96
ugw: used to be 110, but then i just couldn't stop.
though i'd finally crawled out of it this summer, but now its almost winter time again, and thats how it all started last year, so the cycle begins again...

But now its even worse. becuase this winter instead of not eating, I began eating everything. Instead of gaining control, I completely lost it. Instead of becoming skinny and pretty again, i became disgusting and repulsive and fat. Now i'd give anything to go back to last year, and htats exactly how i felt last winter...